I have been waking up every day this week with the feeling that big things are going to happen to me. Big things like getting a real job, finishing school, getting a dog, getting married. Now, I know that I think about those things happening all of the time, but lately, it has been a different feeling. Like the feeling of being tied to an out of control tractor trailer and I am doing everything I can to keep up. I know that I am going to be beat by the time the truck runs out of steam, but I know that I will be really happy when it does.
It seems that lately I don’t really take very long breaks from work. In the past five years I took A LOT of time off. Going to graduate school was a full-time adventure, but no one checked in on me. I had a meeting once a week and I had to have something done. That was it. And what I had to have done varied GREATLY in the amount of time it took to produce the work. But lately, namely when I started working at this institution, I have found myself sitting down more often to my disseration. I keep lists of things to do and I actually check things off.
So I am going to keep hoping that these big things are in my close and emminent future. Which isn’t to say that I have somehow become comfortable with my life. I am still strangely sad about things that I shouldn’t be. I just saw pictures of some old college friends at a marathon and it make me miss so many people it almost hurt.
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oh my goodness michie, you’re growing up so fast.
hah. :)
seriously though, it’s a strange realization when can actually feel your life moving to its next phase.
I had a really great time with you this weekend. It makes me miss you so much that it almost hurts. I’m glad you are my sister, but more importantly I’m glad you are my friend.