i am done. i am done trying to accommodate everyone for this wedding. it is nearly impossible.

why couldn’t we just elope? seriously.

this day is not about them. it is about us. it is our day. yes, we would like our loved ones there, but how far should we be willing to go in order to get them there?

i am done.

I want to elope. Seriously.

Lam tried to reserve rooms for our wedding (eight months in advance!) and almost all of the hotels are sold out. What does that mean?

1. We either have to change our wedding date – even though we pretty much told everyone and their mother what our date was.
or
2. We have to change the venue and lose $750.

Hmmmm…….what is a bride to do?

What I have realized over Thanksgiving….
1. That I really miss my family and my home.
2. That no matter how much I like Lam’s family or how much they like me – they will never be “my” family.
3. That during significant life changing events, I am going to need my family close (i.e., marriage, birth of our children, etc.).
4. That I am absolutely marrying the right man. He understands what I need in my life and is willing to make drastic sacrifices in order for me (and ultimately us) to be happy.

Now I know how Eric feels.

Today when I got into work my co-worker whipped out her left ring finger and showed everyone her insane engagement ring. This is the same co-worker that lives in the same building as me. They have not been together that long – 6 months I think. And just the other day she was complaining about how she wanted to break up with him.

Why does this bother me so much? Maybe it is because I have been irritated the past few days?

1. We have a wedding planner – that is included in the cost of the package.
2. She already reserved the ceremony site for August 8, 2008 (yes we are getting married on 08-08-08)
3. I feel super relieved that I really don’t have to do much of the planning.
4. She made me feel really confident that we can do this within our budget constraints.

Below are some of the things included:

Hopefully this will be about $4000. That would leave us about $1000 for the dress, Lam’s attire, his ring, and any other misc item that comes up.

I already want to be done planning. I am the type of person that has to have things done right away – not wait a year for the results.

things I know:

I know that I want to spend the rest of my life with this person.
yes, I would like my loved ones to be there.
yes, I would like to share the moment with everyone I know.

but I also know that I don’t need to spend $5000 or more on a wedding. I would much rather put that money towards something other than dinner, flowers, and a dress I will only wear once.

I know I will be shunned from the “girl” world for this blog, but it is just not me. why does everything have to be so damn expensive and over the top? what ever happened to simplicity?